April 17th

My best friend died 15 years ago today. I still remember the light in the air, the rush to get to the hospital that morning, and the feeling that came over me when I saw her room door was closed. I knew what lay beyond. I had taken her ice cream which she had asked for the night before. Then I had to call the gang to tell them all.

I remember that day so vivdly. Why is it that we remember bad days so clearly and not good days as clearly? Not sure, but wish it was different. I miss her. I wonder where we would be now if she was around. I think this all the time in fact. She would have loved Shahen. Im certain of it. They are so alike in so many ways.

This weekend was Easter, and my pumpkin left on Saturday. Our visit was fabulous of course, with a few bumps; food poisoning, sickness, time constraints etc. but overall it was a delight to be together again and now we have to endure 9 weeks till we both land in Toronto for my cousins wedding. I guess I better RSVP, but I want to book my flight first to be sure.

I had a great day teaching though I had 6 classes back to back. It was hard but it was a pleasure. I was prepared for them all and took it easy. Kids will take as much rope as you give em (to hang you with). Haha

This weekend a friend may be coming from Serbia for a visit. We met on the CELTA course last summer and I really liked her spunkiness and her spirit. Hope she comes. We will go to Sofia and have a nice night out Saturday, and then head here because I am invited to Easter Dinner at a students home, Ava's in fact. She looked after Oscar this past weekend and he seems to prefer her to me. When she came to return her things, he slept between her feet, not mine.

I can take a hint!

I have even thought of leaving Oscar here with someone who loves him. I am really scared to transport him back. I cant do it I dont think, but have thought again and again if this would be best for Oscar. I cant be selfish, but I also don't think I can leave him behind, even if it IS with someone he prefers.

Im really blabbing here. So many topics in one blog.

ONE more topic. Varna. Shahen and I were there for a few days and we really liked it. The first 2 nights we were out of town by the seaside. It was gray and chilly but it was still really lovely there. Varna is also a huge and booming metropolis. If we were to buy a place here in Bulgaria, that would be the place to head to. I would love to have a small place there looking onto the water. I dont know if this would be affordable, but its worth a look. Varna seemed to have construction happening every which way you looked, so why not one for us?

I cannot open Blogger at home any more, so blogging will be sporadic from now on. I am truly sick of the computer, but what can I do. Only 9 more weeks till I am home.